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If You Really Knew

It is said that memories are both pleasure and pain. How can they be either, being but an Illusion of permanence ? Memories are but photographs, collected data, and carries no inherent Reality or pain or pleasure with them. It gets back to identifying with them. That which has been is not, so there is no need to identify with that which is not ? Clinging to that past is but a chain keeping you from the Present Eternal Infinite Moment.

The mind can not stop, and we would not want it to. It is the constant arising conditioned notions that we harbor and store there that we must stop by letting them go -- like the importance of the body and seeming permanence of memories. What makes you *think* there is no pleasure when we stop the ever swinging pendulum of arising conditioned thoughts ? You may have a treat in store.

Dualism is a disease of conditioned perception within phenomenal concepts. Indicating some sort of identity distinction of one thing to another. When, there is actually no thing outside of any thing that could dwell inside of any thing else. As we continue to Seek outside ourself for some thing that would dwell inside us we will always find our own conditioned projections outside of us, which already dwells Within. We are quite complete Within ourself, the only inhabitant is YOU. If you find someone else in there, I would look for an Exorcist for if there is anything else in there it can not be up to any good. Though indeed the Lights are always on, at times we can find no one Home.

Indeed there is a stage of Awakening when we are drawn to be something that we know we are not and other times to be who we know we are. This is when we still do not trust totally the validity of our True Nature for it is other than we have always been. We want the Transition/Transformation/Transfiguration to be smooth and even perhaps undetectable by others. So we put on the Mast and do what we have to do yet are relieved when we can again take off the Mast and BE ourSelf. Such charade, we say to ourself, is but a necessity to *get along*. And as smooth as we orchestrate our Transition/Transformation/Transfiguration there will come a Moment when we Realize/Recognize that the game we play is not worth the effort for as smooth as it may seem there is going to be an abrupt *this is it*. Also we Realize/Recognize that we are only fooling ourself because everyone really knows that our Change is afoot. For eventually, since there is actually none other than who we ARE, and since it is the most comfortable state to BE, we simply say to ourself "this is it, this is who I am and this is who I must be". For there will come a time when nothing else is acceptable to us. What we find is that everyone is already sort of used to the idea of our Transition/Transformation/Transfiguration, and that our Transition/Transformation/Transfiguration fits in quite well with what one might call "normalcy". For we are still the same person, it is just that we see things differently than we did. You will also find that your Transition/Transformation/Transfiguration is most acceptable to the Sleeping ream in many ways (other than you then seeing things differently). Most acceptable because as it turns out you are a better person, it is just that you do not see things as you did.

Oh, and in the name of curtesy and respect and perhaps diplomacy, we still do things quite normally. It is just that we are not so beguiled or fooled by the fodder of those Sleeping. And instead of possessions and/or positions reigning, Peace and Compassion and Empathy and Understanding reigns.

One more thing. We must crawl before we Walk and Walk before we Run, so the stage you are no doubt going through is merely such stages of Unfolding. I would only offer to *Go With The Flow* of your Unfolding Awakening.

Oh indeed, I would like to be able to say some magical phrase or tap people on the head and *poof* they would start to Wake-Up. But alas, all I can do is Point in the hopes that they will be Open and Honest enough with themselves to Look where I may Point. For you see, I do not have Truth/Reality so I can not give it to anyone. I do Truthfully Point to Truth/Reality so it is up to YOU to See it. No one can Save you but yourself, no one can and no one may, I can Point to the Path, but you yourself must Walk the Way.

Conditioned notions ? Cleanse ourself of conditioned notions ? In all schools of thought, Wise Sages say it in their own way and relative to their own time, but what they are saying is to Empty the mind of defiling conditioned programs. These Wise Sages do not gloss it over for they are simply using the terms at their disposal, WE gloss it over when we do not Recognize their words as Pointers to What-IS.

We actually do have to function in the world at large. We are indeed *in* the world. But I would plead with you to not try to be *of* the world. Enjoy a certain functionality *in* the world, but BE who YOU really ARE.

In the name of Clarity, Awakening is quite Painless yet it is the letting go of acquired influences (conditioned notions) that is the Painful part because we have grown quite attached to them. They are our operating system, our mode of operation. Letting go of all those dearly beloved notions is most Painful. I stress the Pain not so much to inform anyone that there is Pain involved, for they know that already. They know it because it is the Fear of this Pain that keeps them turning away from Awakening. The Pain can be endured, as most any other Pain such as the loss of a loved one or parent to mortal death. Once emersed in the Pain it is a simple matter of wearing it out or seeing it through, but before we are emersed in the Pain we Fear it. So I stress the Pain Pointing to all those who have started Awakening since time immemerable as a indicator that obviously the Pain is not insurmountable. To, perhaps, Point to the Fact that since the Pain is quite survivable, proven since time immemerable by those Truly Awakening, there is really nothing to Fear. I ask no one to *believe* this offering, for indeed I would not want them to. But if one never tries it one can never prove it otherwise. Odd thing is, those who have actually Openly Honestly Truly let go of those conditioned notions seem to be saying the same things (in a variety of ways). Those who never get beyond the Fear and endure the Pain all react to such offerings with the Fear that the offering may very well be True. Then they would be *up the creek without a paddle*.

That is why more and more people are stressing letting go of conditionings (though perhaps not stated in those terms) and embracing the Fear of the Pain and embracing the Pain. Why do they stress it ? Because they know that it is a simple (though at times arduous) matter once one *gets into it*. They also know, because they were there at one time too, that the hardest step to take is the first one. Once they *let go* and fall face first into their own crap they Realize that it did not kill them. THEN they start shoveling out the crap. But that first step, that commitment to oneself to let go of all conditioned defilements, is the most Painful one. After that first Pain the rest of the Pain seems minor. Another reason that such offerings are presented is because we are in the beginning of a Dark Age, Kali Yuga. Such Cosmic influences make it more difficult to start Awakening. We still feel the Aquarian Cycle of the exposure of Awakening within this Kali Yuga Age and so such offerings are still available. So, one could say "why put off until tomorrow what can be done today", for tomorrow it might be harder to do.

Why I do not stress any *reward* for enduring such arduous Painful struggle is because it is beyond description. No futile words could ever even give a faint picture of what BEing Awakening IS. It is The Dance, the Cosmic Dance Awakening. And yes, we can avoid the Pain by closing our eyes, but we miss the Dance.

Wholeness or Totality is the foundation of NonDuality -- All Is One, a Unity of Multiplicity. But "divine volition" ? What is volition other than the ability to choose ? Volition, choice, Divine or otherwise, is but a contrivance of Duality. If All Is One, who is to choose ? If All Is One, what choices are there ? So who is there to create ? Even Einstein said that nothing is created but rather rearranged. There can only be One or Two, the seeming mixture is folly. If you are to present Wholeness or Totality or Oneness, may I offer that using Duality to do so is a hypocrisy and contradictory and will only add to already established delusion. This is not to slight your efforts, but rather to enhance them.

It is one's Understanding or Awareness of What-IS that must be inclusive of All that IS. For "individual importance", even if you say it is "who's singular presence is the universe", connotes possession. Who is there to possess ? What can be possessed ? "Singular personage integrity" is counterproductive to Oneness or Wholeness or Totality. Again, this is not to slight your efforts, but rather to enhance them.

With Duality and Separateness ? I see where you are going, but there are stumbling blocks along that route which very well may lead far afield of where you want to go. Yet, we are conditioned to "self-validate" via our conditioned notions. We are conditioned to *think* there is permanence ? These are our conditioned notions. There are aspects (Laws) of the Cosmos that are seemingly stable or permanent in our limited short duration in any given incarnation. Yet, as each Moment is Eternal and Infinite, each Moment IS anew and always in flux or change.

Humanity has tried to serve two Masters since time immemerable, and they are still the Slaves they always have been. There is no such thing as a conditioned True Nature. I am afraid that the one, the ego, will have to be annihilated in order for the other, the Ego, to flourish. The quick fix or easy way out is to convince yourself that you can keep the dearly beloved conditioned notions that cover up the True Nature and still BE your True Nature. If that were possible, everyone would be an Enlightened Master and would not be members of these discussion groups proselytizing their foolish beliefs of this and that. Indeed we are in an Age when folly will reign, so it will take a little Work to keep the cobwebs wiped from our Eyes.

The big 'I' and the little 'i' forming a company, a cooperative effort toward our Salvation. Though this company has and does and will thrive, the tickets they print up and *sell* to you for your admission to Salvation will not be accepted at the door. Being left on the dock when the Ship Sails is most disenchanting. And we can not go back and get a refund. The Dream we Dream is most enchanting so we forgo Waking-Up.

All IS What-IS and quite AS it IS. Which is AS it should BE. Misconstrued, due to our conditioned notions of this and that, we *think* that humanity's interference of conditioning programming controlling manipulating each other is what-is also. It is added baggage that weighs us down and is quite the burden to carry. So they continue to cling to silly conditioned notions because it would be too much Work and too Painful let go of those notions. Paradoxically, the baggage is the very Cause of the Pain and the Suffering. Those conditioned notions stop us short of BEing What-IS.

Actually All is already simply Manifested Consciousness. All simply IS AS it IS, and it only IS AS it IS this very Present Eternal Moment without projected conditioned notions. BEing What-IS this very Moment, BEing this very Moment, there is no little 'i' or even a big 'I' to be unconscious or Aware of anything. Unconscious is BEing unconscious, Awareness is BEing Awareness, Awakening is BEing Awakening. Again, YOU ARE Consciousness. As the kicking and dancing and tables and whatever is Consciousness. Consciousness directing Consciousness ? The Grand Trickster directs, Consciousness simply IS.

The conditioned mind to tries to rationalize/justify thoughts, but thoughts lead only to more thoughts. Most presentations are logical and rational and a product of thoughts, so it is not worth the space that it clutters. Let go of thoughts and let go of logic and rational and conceptualizations/intellectualizations of all sorts. The mind is the mind and does what the mind does, a wonderful instrument. As long as there are thoughts in the mind there will be thinking. Thoughts will arise, yet do not pay any attention to them, just see that they arise and let them fall as they arose. The mind can be trained not to be attached to the thoughts that arise. We are conditioned to grasp any thought that arises and ponder it's purpose for arising. That is what we have to stop. It is when we get to a point of training our mind not to jump on every thought that arises that the thoughts will simply not arise any more. THAT is Thoughtless-ness. We only fool ourself in *thinking* that thoughts can establish their opposite (Thoughtless). It is all about letting go of the power of thoughts have over us by letting go of the thoughts.

Now, there is thinking. The Key is *when* that thinking takes place, before and as the experience occurs or after the experience. We are conditioned to start thinking when the senses (eyes, ears, nose, touch, taste) notice something (and sometimes before). WRONG ! We must train our mind to shut up until we have soaked up the Wonders that we see or hear or smell or taste or touch and THEN *perhaps* think about it. OR, shut up until we have soaked up the Wonders that we see or hear or smell or taste or touch and STAY Still and simply keep absorbing the Wonders. OR, shut up until we have soaked up the Wonders that we see or hear or smell or taste or touch and if something needs to be done that we have to do THEN think about how best this can be done.

But the first step in training the mind to be Still until Consciously we need to think. You did not make your statement above, the Grand Trickster did. You must be ever so Mindful of that varmint.

First, there is no such thing as "present time". IN/AS the ever anew Eternal Infinite Present Moment there is no duration (time). More rationalizations of the Grand Trickster ? Time is a man-made clever tool to measure duration, and that is all. A very handy tool in many ways for many things in this phenomenal realm, but it is not IN/AS the ever anew Eternal Infinite Present Moment. There is nothing wrong with time or a time-line relative to phenomenality, but it is not found as part of the ever anew Eternal Infinite Present Moment.

The ever anew Eternal Infinite Present Moment is not time bound. The phenomenal real, mortality, is time bound yet not Awakening. Awakening is quite Eternal and Infinite and very Immortal. Sometimes we have to put on a mask and fool the world, but do not fool yourself.

May I suggest that perhaps not realizing that you are ahead of where you were, but rather a glimpse of where you ARE. For no matter where we go, there we ARE. The Key is to maintain that Glimpse of the Eternal Infinite Moment indefinitely. Letting go of the conditioned notion that there was a "was" will get you a bit closer to What-IS.

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Indeed, relying on our conditionings we are always in a flux of ups and downs -- it is the Nature of Sleeping. Is this continual ups and downs not a major Cause of our Suffering ? Are not these ups and downs controlled and manipulated by our conditionings ? Are we *tested* by Fate or are there needed circumstances established for our continual Awakening ? Is our Awakening an *Experience IN/AS the Moment* or a *lesson Learned* or a *test passed* ? Further, these ups and downs will not simply "fade away" or "become" anything other than what they are. Our conditionings, resulting in the ups and downs, being the Causes of our Suffering, the Key is to Directly Experience these ups and downs as What-IS at that Moment and Realize the Illusion of them. Realize the conditionings of them. Realizing how our conditionings control and manipulate our ups and downs, and discarding these conditionings -- which would eliminate the ups and downs. Not an easy task to be sure, but a necessary one.

We each must "destroy" our conditionings in ourselves, I can only Point to Vital information that may Help. No one Saves us but ourselves. A rose is still a rose by any other name, so substituting one belief for yet another advances us along The Path not at all. We are still stuck in a belief system regardless of it's mixture or flavor. The Freedom that IS Awakening is in your very room, though it may be hard to Recognize at times. Problem is, so are the conditionings.

What is "consciousness of christ" ? What, for that matter, is Christ Consciousness ? Words people use to delude others and themselves ? Is not the word *Christ* only an indication of Awakening ? Could we not say that we are all Christs ? You are not *made* in some image, our conditionings carefully place images in our thinking and behavior. Though we are made or programmed in the images of our conditionings. YOU are an image of YOU, and it is YOU who you are Awakening to Realize. Is it a Fact that you Realize it to be True because you Directly Experienced it, or are you believing what another says ? There is your test. You and you alone, Deeply Within, will decipher the difference.

The ills plaguing humanity have not increased in magnitude as well as individual force and momentum ? The visitors from the East did not take meditation and words of Wisdom to the West to Help usher in the Golden Age, but rather to take Tools that would Help humanity either to Save themselves before plunging more deeply into Kali Yuga or to at least Help humanity struggle through it. For those who have Awakened to a degree will be mortified in the depths of a Dark Age without such Tools. Look around, the *handwriting in on the wall*. Many have asked themselves, "where are the Great Philosophers, the Great Poets, the Great Masters of Wisdom, the Great so called Saviors of the world ?" Humanity's cleverness has advanced him outwardly and opened new dimensions in the physical realm, yet Inwardly he has continually become poorer and poorer to the point that he is but a demented relic of a Divinity that he constantly programs himself afield of.

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The Wonders that you would See might be a Surprise If only you would so Truly Listen and Open your Eyes, The Light is dim when it has to show through the Filter Of your conditioned notions that put it way out of kilter. -- Yogajyotii

You do not know the disastrous shape that you are in For you play a game with yourself that you can not win, Because if you really knew what your Fate has in store Fright would be so chilling you'd not be seen any more. -- Yogajyotii

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